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Winter restlessness has kicked in, full force. Have cleaned out my closet for the umpteenth time, am staring at a pile of art papers, have tackled the dreaded 'dry clean only' pile with a vengeance, and am delving dangerously into the 'What the hell am I doing with my life?' mindset.

Time for change is upon us.

Maybe all of this caucus nonsense and political clap-trap is getting to me. Not that I'm not politically-minded. I'm the frightening bring-it-up-in-bar-conversation liberal tree-hugging free-love-for-all variety. But my passions and convictions can only handle the bruise and fall-out of publicity campaigns and poll speculations to a certain extent before my mind checks out completely. I've stopped watching C-Span altogether and CNN is limited. Soon I will have given up entirely on television news and will base my education entirely the E! network.

I've started books and not finished them, shredded resume drafts, left cleaning tasks half-completed, scribbled dozens of to-do/to-call/to-write lists, and let most of my perishable food... well, perish in the refrigerator. And I managed to finally rent some films at Blockbuster and not watch them... and they're due soon. I do really want to see Away From Her. Maybe I'll watch that tonight if I can't sleep. (always likely)

January is the dreaded month of financial fall-out, and getting the cash under control has left a bitter taste in my mouth. Oh, and I keep forgetting to mail my thank-you notes. And get my vacation photos printed. And vacuum.

Oh, Mexico. [sigh] How wonderful life was in that magical responsibility-free Pacific dream bubble.

Life has careened around another corner, now, and I'm staring reality in its terrifying face.

Also, I'm thinking of seeing an energy specialist. Except I have a feeling she's not covered by my health plan. Just a guess. And considering the astronomical fees of the doctor who recommended her to me... this one could really bite me in the ass. But I'm optimistic.

I need to work up some energy for tomorrow night. It's Wednesday, after all... and you know what that means. Am determined to sleep in my own bed for once. Really. I mean it this time.

Side note: Last week we had a blizzard. Today temps rose above 60 degrees. If Indiana skies next produce flying monkeys singing the Wizard of Oz theme I won't be the least surprised.